Standing at the shore of the infinite ocean of Consciousness I contemplate the choices laid out before me. Should I stand here on the verge of Self-knowledge in the relative comfort of this zone of ignorance, or should I plunge head-long into the putrid quagmire of my mind, slay the monstrous ego lurking within and pluck out the precious Stone of Self-understanding?
I have been walking along the shoreline searching for clues that might help me decide. From time to time I probe the Waters lapping against the sure and solid ground of delusion and get fleeting glimpses of a Reality long forgotten. This path of indecision (being a decision in itself) has lead me into a place of even more self doubt in which I question even why I am walking here at all!
Walking along the shore I watch the Sun rise and set, day after day. I throw rocks into the Ocean and watch the ripples–cause and effect. I am the doer of many pointless things each having their own hurtful and wasteful consequences. How many circuits have I made, round and round, like a mouse in a wheel in a cage?!
Dipping my toes into the Waters of the Ocean I sense the wonder of it all yet my mind reels with doubt and my body is racked with pain. I want to jump in and flow into the infinite, but fear beyond fear holds me back.
My ego laughs while I cry. My ego yells while I sigh. My ego deceives and ensnares me, binds me, goads me, taunts me, entices me, tempts me, hates me! Yet my ego is not me, never was me, never will be me! It entraps me in the chains of my own stupidity, but I know how to break free . . . just jump into the Sea . . . be what I am to be . . . see what I’m meant to see . . .
Imagine a place where ALL that ever was, is or ever will be, EVERYWHERE coexisted simultaneously. Would this place be infinitely small or infinitely large, and would there be any practical difference between the two possibilities? This place is NEXUS and it is where I would like to BE! So join me in exploring the infinite possibilities! (and no I’m not under the influence of any drugs, lol)
I originally posted this about 2.5 years ago. I stand by my original premise, but I have much to add and will do so in the future present!
The word “occult” has been systematically imbued with dark overtones and evil connotations to discourage people from seeking the very knowledge and truth that has been occulted (hidden). The perpetrators of this crime against humanity know full well that the only way they can wield the power of Universal knowledge to control people is to keep this truth out of the minds of the people. The so-called royal blood lines and their minion priest classes have been doing just this for thousands of years. We, the people, have been subjugated to this manipulation all this time and have been programmed to not only accept our lot, but to also crave it. Some of us pay lip service to our slavery by speaking out against it and demanding freedom. Some of us have pledged our lives, fortunes and sacred honor in open rebellion against tyranny while pursuing a freedom that we so viciously denied to others. Some of us put our faith and hope in a false political dichotomy which exists solely to promote and accomplish the agendas and goals of its own members who pay cheap lip service to the interests of their constituents. Some of us live in perpetual denial of existence of evil claiming that only good exists, and vice versa. I fear that the vast majority of us (myself included) seek maximum comfort and pleasure with minimum expenditure of energy. We cycle through our daily lives, day after day after day, never realizing in our somnambulism that the very knowledge that could set us on the path to true freedom escapes us. Hence the chains!
“The Gnostic Pentagram is the human (אדם Adam) figure with four limbs, and one single apex which is the head. The sign of the Pentagram is also called the sign of the Microcosm. It represents what the Kabbalist Rabbis of the book Zohar call the Microprosopus.” - The Gnostic Bible: The Pistis Sophia Unveiled by […]
Why do some have spiritual experiences while others do not? Learn how to have reliable spiritual experiences. The Three Minds Sensual Mind Intermediate Mind Inner Mind “(Jesus)… taught them (Pharisees and Sadducees) in their synagogue, insomuch that they were astonished, and said, Whence hath this man this Sophia (σοφία), and these mighty works? …And they […]
An introduction to the universal teachings on sexual transmutation, also known as alchemy or tantra. Explains the following (and more): The Golden Bowl of Buddha. The Ark of the Covenant Crossing the Jordan River. Jesus Turing Water into Wine at the Wedding. The Mystery of Dionysus and Bacchus. The Hermetic Seal, and why it is […]
Mindfulness is paying attention to our experience. Mindfulness has a quality of openness, being open to the experience of the moment without avoidance or distortion. Spaciousness is what is directly experienced when mental content (thoughts and emotions) cease. We experience the space of our awareness through meditation. Emptiness, as an experience, is a radical annihilation […]
Gnostic Psychology is a method of awakening consciousness. It can also be called Spiritual Psychology or Revolutionary Psychology. Get slides (PDF) here: https://gnosticteachings.org/download/beginning-here-and-now-introductory-lectures/859-beginning-here-and-now-gnostic-psychology-pdf.html Psychology is the combination of two Greek words, meaning ‘study of the soul’: ψυχή psyche: “breath, spirit, soul” λόγος logos: “explanation” This lecture discusses how all major religions have the elements of […]
“The “Theomertmalogos” weaves and unweaves its own loom with infinite wisdom. All of Nature is the loom of God. The Four-and-twentieth Mystery only functions by way of the Sixth Mystery.” - Samael Aun Weor, The Gnostic Bible: The Pistis Sophia Unveiled
Explains the secrets behind the story of the woman and Jesus at the Well of Jacob, Jacob’s Ladder, the Jacob’s Stone Pillar, and Jacob’s Struggle with God. Slides (with quotes and references) found at the course home: https://gnosticteachings.org/download/esoteric-christianity-course.html Reviews the three primary souls of kabbalah: נפש Nephesh – Animal Soul רוח Ruach – Thinking-Emotional Soul […]
This lecture looks at the factors that keep us trapped in cyclic existence through the lens of Hindu, Buddhist, and Gnostic scriptures, and how we can free ourselves from suffering through in-depth comprehension of our own Being and the reality that surrounds us.
Suffering has a cause. When we perceive the cause, we can then apply the remedy. How do we know that suffering can be cured? Because of this simple law of nature: “A superior law overpowers an inferior law.” To cure suffering, we start by studying it. Classically, there are three basic forms of suffering: Suffering […]
To develop and expand compassion, the basis of liberation from suffering, one needs to know how to preserve and harness the substance of compassion (שמן, bodhichitta). This has three essential practical actions: Transmutation Transformation Transubstantiation These three acts develop the fire (ש) of compassion. "If someone is near me [Christ], he will burn. I [Christ] am […]
“The object of the superior man is truth.” – Confucius This lecture is about discovering the truth within ourselves. It explains the Four States of Consciousness: Eikasia: Dream, Delusion Pistis: “Vigil,” Irrational Belief, Opinion Dianoia: Self-cognizance, Dialectical Analysis Nous: Objective cognizance, Intuition Also, the Tree of Life in relationship to psychology and meditation, and the […]
Anyone who has known love knows that it has physical effects: this experience demonstrates that love is a substance. Learn how to work with that substance in order to develop the fullest capabilities of your heart. Discusses how the highest virtue, compassion (bodhichitta, רחמים rachamim), is developed from the substances of our bodies, which is […]
"Whatever joy there is in this world all comes from desiring others to be happy [compassion], and whatever suffering there is in this world, all comes from desiring myself to be happy [lust]. But what need is there to say much more? The childish work for their own benefit, the Buddhas work for the benefit […]
"We must search for the Divine Mother within our heart temple." -Samael Aun Weor What is your relationship to your Divine Mother? Do you feel her within? Do you sense her loving presence? Do you allow her into your heart, into your life? Through this lecture we will explore our personal relationship with our inner […]
Iccha-shakti is the will of our consciousness and the sexual force of life, it is the will in all dynamic forces of the universe. It is willpower. Thelema. This lecture explains three types of will related to different stages of the path: Ratzon La’Hshpia רצון להשפיע – Will to Influence Ratzon La’Kabel רצון לקבל – Will to Receive Ratzon La’Tet רצון לתת – Will […]
Each soul's attainment is according to its evolution. Commentary by Hazrat Inayat Khan: Opinion is an outcome of mind. It is an outburst of its reasoning and judging faculty. And so, according to the evolution of a particular mind, its opinion is. Opinions clash when two people of different stages of evolution express themselves. Therefore the […]
New for August is an article which explores the stages of spiritual development. Step-by-step the Ox-Herding Pictures show our progression from a self-concerned, habitually conditioned state, through the stages of gaining insight and understanding, and finally emerging back into the busy marketplace of life in a benevolent new role.