December 31, 2016
I wrote this in a brief moment of inspiration. Now I feel that inspiration turning into an all too familiar desperation. I have felt for a long time that an abyss has opened before me. An abyss created by opposing forces or rather an imbalance of forces–one trying to propel me forward towards the free me I want to be and yet already am and the other, sinister, conniving force chaining me back to remain the enslaved me that I never wanted to be and never really was.
Learning to Fly
–Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers
Forward into the Abyss I jump,
Pulled ever downward by heavy, horrid gravity,
Weight of Karma, effects of all those causes,
Pain of all the wronged souls in my life,
What went around coming back around,
Debt of all love borrowed with accrued interest,
Love never given, always taken,
Giving, doing, being, living, loving,
Receiving, waiting, wanting, dying, hating,
Falling faster, will I wake before impacting?
Will I Awake and See and Know and Love and just BE?
Will I rise with Phoenix Wings extended catching air?
Breathing in the breath of life, prana,
Breathing out the breath of love, prana,
Kundalini rising, Divine Mother’s gift,
Serpent Fire burning as ten thousand Suns!
Burning away necrosis, psychosis, stenosis,
Fusing simple into incredible,
Transmuting lead of the dead to gold of the bold,
Burning bright as ten trillion Suns,
Bringing new Life to the dark Abyss!
A Life once glimpsed never forgotten!
Into the Abyss I must jump,
Then, and only then, will I have a chance to fly!
Shalom and Namaste! (See you on the other side!)